You’ll Sorry

What is in your mind
What are you thinking
Are you get out of your mind
Why don’t you realize
I’m here for you
Every words, Every treats
I did it for you
I just wanna you to be tough
I want you to be ready for the worst
I know what you do is wrong
That’s why I want to turn it right

What you have to do is open your eyes
There’s too much God gives you
So, a little thankful is not too big
What you have to do is open your heart
You will see what I did is good for you
You will be a better person in the future
Just open your heart

You treat bad good people around you
You misunderstand about friendship
What God gives you is not yours forever
You will lost it all someday
And in that time will be too late to realize that you have everything
Cos’ you’ve lost it all

I just want you to be a good girl
You’ll sorry for what you did to me
Yes, you’ll sorry


Unsent Letter for Ella....

I'm Surviver

I am survive. Yes, I am. It’s seems like impossible for me last week but now I am more tough then ever. I try to understand this situation, and I still don’t get it. I reached the top of thinking and I can’t think anymore. And now I just let it flow, I’m going with the flow. If I can’t fight the flow then go with it. That’s what I’m doing. Go with the flow doesn’t mean that I agree with them. No, I am not. True is true, false is false there’s nothing we can do to tolerated false become true. That’s same that we make double false, and that’s fatal false. I try to go with them just to have save position arround them so I can change it slow but sure. I don’t give up now, I ‘m still fighting and I’ll win someday. She is my target! I’ll gonna changed her, yes I am.

But before that, I have to win her heart again. I know it’s gonna be hard work, need time and sacrifices. I’ll do it anyway, and I’m ready for it.

Why It's Happening To me???

Be patient! Right now I really hate that word. O ya I hate that word. I can't be patient anymore, but why everybody keep telling me to be patient? I don't know what they're thinking. Don't they understand what i feel? I 'm dying here. This situation is killing me inside and I don't want to waste my time for waiting my own death. I don't even want to wait for another day. I don't want to stay here anymore. I am suffering here. I just wanna go, anywhere but here.

I don't know what have I done to her, but she is hating me now. And that make me down. I lay down on the floor right now and I don't know how to stand up. Don't they know that I am fragile?? I am fragile and my heart is just like a crystal. It's broken now. I don't know how to fix it........ God please help me...................

Enough!!! Enough is enough. I don't wanna hear them anymore, I am leaving. I am going!!! I am give up now, and I am going. I am sorry, I cant wait anymore. I am leaving...................
I don't wanna see her face anymore, no more. I don't wanna see that faces. Faces that hate me.

I hope that she will changed some day............ Cos' I still love her............. And it's make me sad.......... Why It's happening to me?????????????????????????????????????????????????